the fog lay there like a blanket of despair

which end is up?

I can't see through the layers of confusion

what does my heart desire?

Im scared

I am at a crossroads

where does my heart want to lead me ?

One road is the logical choice, 

the way to supporting my family

paying the bills; the conventional, traditional way

A part of me feels like it dies when I go forward on that path

it doesn't feel like my soul's purpose

there isn't as much time anymore to waste

I am being pulled to a higher calling 

which is risky and unplotted

seemingly foolish to the outside world

am I a dreamer? or am I finally being true to my self

and honoring my truth?

selfish I may seem, a fool to others 

but to take the safe road is too confined

I feel stuck and rigid

my breath leaves me and fear sets in

the seemingly safer choice 

becomes a form of death sentence

leaving the less known risky road 

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