you

you are the flame that burns at my edge of infinity

you are the silence that surrounds my mindless chatter

you are the laughter in the midst of my sadness

you are the power that generates through my weakness

you are the food that satiates my hunger

you are the beauty that emerges from my ugliness

you are the hope that burns through my doubts

you are the dream that snuffs out my nightmare

you are the heat that melts my frozen existence

you are the courage that propels me beyond my wildest dreams

you are the truth that keeps me honest in my heart

you are the inspiration that drives me to create

you are the forgiveness that accepts me when I'm wrong

you are the means to my end

transformation

Crimson shades of love
radiating around my body
sweet melancholy
courses through my bloodstream
crystal light blinds my vision
enlightening my burdened soul
from its misery
the loneliness 
I have endured 
disintegrates
into the finest powder
which is blown away
by the scorching wind

the missing piece

Seeds of intention
are lovingly sown
the happiness they bring
is still unknown
faithfully watering
my wishes with love
will hopefully
awaken the gods from above
to manifest the dreams 
which torment my soul
of longing for a 
missing piece that was
lost along the way

no more repairs......

finally it's broken down

no more repairs

patches cant fix the problems

a complete and total surrender is required

it all has to fall apart

no more repairs

let the layers shed away

leaving exposed an open wound

it needs oxygen

to start the blood flow

there is always an opportunity for healing

but our minds get in the way

egos suffocate the truth

pretending to know all

posing as heros

while inside you're rotting

letting each moment slip away into disillusionment

it seems easier to believe your lies

than to face your truth

on the outside it looks perfect

you are the master of disguise

able to hide from your demons

but only for a while

before the deep hole in which you are filling

grows larger and larger 

until the shell cracks

and you can no longer deny

the pain 

lost my way

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

people to please

feel drained

giving in to others desires

disregarding my own

sometimes the fight doesn't seem worth it

so i concede 

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

easier to say yes than to disappoint

at first it seems to work

they are so happy 

but later i am full of regret and resentment

angry at myself for giving in

when i knew my heart wasn't in it

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

and so life goes on

lessons are learned 

i am human

i will get back on that train to my inner knowingness

and remember next time to follow my heart

not sacrifice my own happiness 

to make others happy

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

open secret

working through my barriers

feeling the pain that tries to hold me down

accepting the discomfort

trusting the impermanence

knowing there are frontiers that i haven't yet seen

wondering where they will take me

visualizing love and ease

laughter and tears

my heart expands to encompass my enemies

we are all one

holding an open secret of inadequacies

trying to protect our egos from being busted

risking the truth 

exposing my belly

to the world of judgement 

letting go of the fear 

releasing the need to protect

accepting the awkwardness

changing and metamorphosing 

into a free soul

ready to explore 

the unknown territory 

which lies ahead

Sophie Isadora

sophie isadora haber

our first born

the pioneer trailblazer

indigo girl

dreamer

dancing to your own beat

determined

brave

full of thoughts

imaginative

creative

funny 

wise beyond your years

intuitive

fiercely protective of your heart

you walk with the wolves

and dance with the stars

you swim with the dolphins

and dream with the gypsies

your soul has lived a million years 

inspiring us with your eyes

that capture truth 

you are sixteen today

on the precipice of being a woman

here i sit in awe of your past 

and in wonderment of your future

god bless you always