accepting that she had no control was not defeat
in fact it was freeing
for so long she tried to make it all look
presentable and perfect
there was always a laundry list of things that needed
to be attended to
and if she could cross them all off by the weeks end
she would feel accomplished
but after a while
she stopped feeling fulfilled
it never felt like she could attain the hapiness
eventually the work became greater and more arduous
the stakes became higher and higher
until one day she just snapped
she couldn't keep the plates spinning anymore
the contorting herself inside and out could no longer
support the cause
so she finally let go
of the insane dance
and stopped fighting against the flow
she ceased trying to control the outcome
little by little she cleared her plate
of the things in her life that were superfluous
she let go of the vampires who were sucking her energy
she started to breathe again
which fueled her inner pilot light
she asked herself
what makes my heart sing?
where is my passion?
through this life audit she was able to
uncover her truth
and discover where she had lost her way
a phoenix occured
forcing everything to die
in order for the new to grow
by evaluating her life she was able
to plant new seeds of intention
to more closely align with her life's purpose
