open secret

working through my barriers

feeling the pain that tries to hold me down

accepting the discomfort

trusting the impermanence

knowing there are frontiers that i haven't yet seen

wondering where they will take me

visualizing love and ease

laughter and tears

my heart expands to encompass my enemies

we are all one

holding an open secret of inadequacies

trying to protect our egos from being busted

risking the truth 

exposing my belly

to the world of judgement 

letting go of the fear 

releasing the need to protect

accepting the awkwardness

changing and metamorphosing 

into a free soul

ready to explore 

the unknown territory 

which lies ahead

Perfection Rejection

i'm feeling like a spectator

watching my life on a movie screen

wishing that the main character

would finally open up 

and make a difference

reach out and say i love you

open up the wounds

and show her flaws

 finally revealing the authentic

beauty that resides within

hiding for fear of criticism 

or even worse, failure

why do i feel like i can't make a mistake?

where did this feeling of perfection come from?

who expected this from me that created this paralyzing judgement?

when did it start? how did i learn this?

was i born with this affliction?

today i vow to be honest

take a risk and open up myself

to the world hoping that by sharing 

my fears and worries

that i might touch someone else's 

heart and soul 

encouraging them to try,

dream, love, hope, heal

i end the legacy of pain and suffering in solitude

i'm far from perfection

every day i fail at something 

but the world doesn't stop 

i'm still breathing 

with the opportunity 

to try again and hopefully get to where i need to go

and along the way i will have helped a few others 

to be true to themselves and encourage them 

to find the beauty and uniqueness

that makes them shine