Motherhood

Being your guide 

has been an honor

and a challenge

from the moment you came from me

there was a story

not mine

but yours

this is the sobering realization of mothering

it's not about me and my projections

of how I see it all unfolding

I am only a conduit

which brought you 

to human form

yes we look alike

dna has a certain inevitable role to play

and yes I identify with your soul

and your struggles

sensitivity is on the highest decibel

in our wiring

we feel the energy

around us like sponges in an ocean

or moths to a flame

but this is where 

our similarities end 

where I am me

and you are 

uniquely you

this realization of separatness 

is an awesome opportunity 

for growth

to bring me closer to my soul's truth 

and you to yours

we teach one another

through our experiences

when I let go and allow

your truth to unfold

releasing my attachments 

to the outcome

there remains a space

for freedom

sometimes you will take 

the path that seems 

illogical to me

I project my own fears 

onto you and your outcome

my ego takes over and 

tries to convince you 

to take the clearer path

the one with the cozy bed

for you to rest your body on

and the comfortable journey

without the heartache

and the lonely nights

but when I revisit my own choices 

and the many bumpy roads that 

I chose to take

I realize that the lonely times

and awkward moments, 

broken dreams and heartaches

were exactly perfect 

for my illumination

I was the only designer of my life 

that could make the choices to become the 

highest self I could be

with this awareness of my own journey

I am able to find it in my 

heart and soul

to trust

and let go of the reigns of your life

enabling you to

blaze the trails

home

to your beautiful

soul

a resolution

i get it

just let it 

flow

you can say no

if you dont like

the way something makes you feel

there is a way to stay real

you may be scared 

to be alone

but its better

to feel proud 

of who you are

than to fill your time with annoying chatter

Gossip is poison

giving those who spread it 

a distraction from their own inadequacies

it's like a drug that they have to keep taking

for fear of facing themselves

to realize, like their victim

they too are sinners

nobody is perfect

we all falter

from time to time

but to admit it and stand in it

you will learn and grow

which is the reason we are all here

on this planet 

to work through our weaknesses

and break the patterns

that have been woven by our ancestors

through the centuries prior

so let this new year teach you 

slow down and look inside

what are you trying to hide?

you are not alone

we are all one people 

facing our fears 

everyday 

so find your sunshine in your soul 

and radiate your warmth 

to a stranger 

you are a gift that god created

and you must share your love

to all