Motherhood

Being your guide 

has been an honor

and a challenge

from the moment you came from me

there was a story

not mine

but yours

this is the sobering realization of mothering

it's not about me and my projections

of how I see it all unfolding

I am only a conduit

which brought you 

to human form

yes we look alike

dna has a certain inevitable role to play

and yes I identify with your soul

and your struggles

sensitivity is on the highest decibel

in our wiring

we feel the energy

around us like sponges in an ocean

or moths to a flame

but this is where 

our similarities end 

where I am me

and you are 

uniquely you

this realization of separatness 

is an awesome opportunity 

for growth

to bring me closer to my soul's truth 

and you to yours

we teach one another

through our experiences

when I let go and allow

your truth to unfold

releasing my attachments 

to the outcome

there remains a space

for freedom

sometimes you will take 

the path that seems 

illogical to me

I project my own fears 

onto you and your outcome

my ego takes over and 

tries to convince you 

to take the clearer path

the one with the cozy bed

for you to rest your body on

and the comfortable journey

without the heartache

and the lonely nights

but when I revisit my own choices 

and the many bumpy roads that 

I chose to take

I realize that the lonely times

and awkward moments, 

broken dreams and heartaches

were exactly perfect 

for my illumination

I was the only designer of my life 

that could make the choices to become the 

highest self I could be

with this awareness of my own journey

I am able to find it in my 

heart and soul

to trust

and let go of the reigns of your life

enabling you to

blaze the trails

home

to your beautiful

soul