forgiveness

it is so much easier to forgive
than to harbor ill feelings
we are not perfect
and we make unconcious choices
from time to time
if we didn't make mistakes
why are we here?
we are living this life
to grow and improve
become more and more conscious
and aware of our actions
using compassion and understanding
to forgive
you hurt my feelings so i pulled away
toughened up trying to heal myself
but somehow the hole was still there
I couldn't fix it
laughter, food ,alcohol, shopping couldn't make it go away
the old ways couldn't heal me
i am thankful that they don't
time to grow up and learn how to communicate
my feelings.......
risking abandonment , your hatred and anger
and resentment
that's a scary lonely place but it is my truth
and i have to honor it
so i prayed for God to take care
and help heal the wounds
help me to forgive
and you to forgive
miraculously what seemed to be the end of something
blossomed into the beginning of a new age
deeper connection , intimacy, saying what we each need
from one another, no more games, or isolation
pure love, trust and understanding that
you have to ride through the storm, sometimes hold
your breath, don't speak, but pray
then suddenly you're on top of the wave and the cool air
flows within and the sun is shining its warm loving arms around you
through the silence and pure intention of love
a new seed was planted and a renewed flame was ignited
we can move ahead now and forgive each other's imperfections
remembering why we are meant for one another