breaking my addiction

breaking my addiction to caretaking and fixing

no more playing God

holding space for people to feel their feelings

no need to change them

developing a new me

recovering new pathways from my head to my heart

no longer willing to play the victim

awakening to consciousness

moving from blame to gratitude

finding my highest vibration

stemming from love

loving and accepting myself

nurturing me

shedding the anger and frustration

allowing forgiveness 

to illuminate the shadows 

of judgement and doubt

surrender

racing to create

impatient can't wait

don't want to lose a minute

trying hard to not sweat it

but the clock is ticking

and nothing is sticking

what is it all about?

want to scream and shout

feeling kind of scared

all the things we've shared

looking for the meaning

and all the love comes streaming

my heart is open

willing to go deeper than i've ever been

feeling kind of nauseous

afraid of the raucous

that is stirring within

burning to begin

a new path

without the wrath

full of spiritual fulfillment

love , peace and enjoyment