lost my way

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

people to please

feel drained

giving in to others desires

disregarding my own

sometimes the fight doesn't seem worth it

so i concede 

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

easier to say yes than to disappoint

at first it seems to work

they are so happy 

but later i am full of regret and resentment

angry at myself for giving in

when i knew my heart wasn't in it

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

and so life goes on

lessons are learned 

i am human

i will get back on that train to my inner knowingness

and remember next time to follow my heart

not sacrifice my own happiness 

to make others happy

i lost my way

forgot to trust and listen to my voices

too many choices

open secret

working through my barriers

feeling the pain that tries to hold me down

accepting the discomfort

trusting the impermanence

knowing there are frontiers that i haven't yet seen

wondering where they will take me

visualizing love and ease

laughter and tears

my heart expands to encompass my enemies

we are all one

holding an open secret of inadequacies

trying to protect our egos from being busted

risking the truth 

exposing my belly

to the world of judgement 

letting go of the fear 

releasing the need to protect

accepting the awkwardness

changing and metamorphosing 

into a free soul

ready to explore 

the unknown territory 

which lies ahead