Liberation

listening to myself

is sometimes a very confusing exercise

my busy brain is like a ticker tape

that runs a whole inner dialogue

of shoulds and shouldn'ts

judgements

fears

self loathing

insecurities

for the most part

i am a positive person

but there is a lower level

of shadow that never leaves me

i don't think it ever will

what i have come to understand is 

this is just a part of being human

if i accept these dark feelings 

letting them come almost like

a dinner guest for a limited amount of time

they pass easily 

but if i fight them and deny their existence

they haunt me on an almost obsessive basis

the key to finding inner peace and my true voice

the one that lifts me and encourages me 

to take action towards my dreams 

is to allow the judgements and fears to be as they are

they diminish and hold less weight in my life 

it's like opening a dark closet 

and letting all the skeletons out to come and play

no hiding out

no secrets

no shame

this is true liberation of the soul