Lose the ego

holding back the tears

facing my fears

trying to stay strong

for my children

not losing it

trying to keep it even

whilst wanting to escape

to some exotic place

where no one knows my face

holding the chalk board

wanting to erase

all the mess

how did we get into this

so deep

i can't keep making it pretty

my smile doesn't come naturally

i am only human

not a super hero

morale is less than zero

why don't you see the beauty

be grateful for the gifts

let go of the toys

and the bad boys

stop and smell the roses

focus on the love

leave behind your ego

and accept the loss

trust and have faith that God is full of grace

boats, cars, houses, jobs

are temporary

family is always and forever

health is a choice

letting go is the lesson

look around you and see

just how blessed you are

richer than any billionaire

the sun shines so brightly on you

but you are blind

stuck in the shadows of ego

i pray you will let it go

and finally be grateful for the journey

no one is free of pain

it is the dance that tempts us

but if we trust

then we shall grow and finally be free

dig deep inside your soul

look at your makers

and learn from their mistakes

have compassion and empathize

but don't be a martyr

be smarter

you can carve your own way

and teach your children

what you have learned

be a better man

i know you can

Keep it Simple

staying sane in an insane world

seemingly impossible with all of the distractions and information flying at me

trying to keep it simple

too many choices

but i hear their voices whispering in my ear

telling me to keep it simple

materialism leads to vandalism

not appreciating the essence of life

sweet simplicity

ignites electricity

within the soul

inspiring me to be free

free from the choices

which lead to toxicity

spoiled self centered souls

preoccupied with possessions

leading to depression

sinking deep down to the bottom

without hope or faith that

tomorrow holds the key

and the sun will shine again

trusting that God and the universe

provide for all

if you believe that there is enough

there will be

so here is the key

hold it to your heart

and if you could only start to trust

without distractions and addictions clouding your mind

strip away the make up

and wake up to a new day

that awaits you

vacation

a pause from reality

time to inhale the beauty of life

and exhale the toxins of day to day

fears disintegrate

sun shines all day

time to dream

and explore

reinvent yourself

change your path

discover your inner desires

shed the scabs and heal the wounds

just you and mother nature

the sea, sun, sand, crabs, mosquitos, candles

breezes, palm trees, coconuts......mangos

siestas.......margaritas..........wild horses

laughter..........surfin.......dancing

life is full of joy

and sorrow

but that can wait

till tomorrow

today I will Carpe Diem

taste the sweetness

the nectar of love

that surrounds us

run naked

without armour

no protection needed

only open hearts

are welcome on this island

no judgement

only acceptance

god bless all the creatures that live

authentically

infinity awaits our dreams

so throw your wishes into the ocean

and trust that they will manifest

when god thinks it best

amen

hibernation

coming out of hibernation

looking for some liberation

from the chains that bind me

wondering if you'll ever find me

dreaming under the glittering sky

of a life that is quickly passing me by

needing the warmth and love and affection

a partner strong who can provide protection

yet sensitive who will listen to my needs

balanced and secure enough to take my lead

my heart knows what it wants

my head tells me not to taunt

i'm a crab that likes to change its shell

but afraid to ring the bell

familiarity is my prison

the future has risen

calling my name

teasing me to play the game

what if i lose?

how can i choose?

god tells me to let go

and then i will know

and so i risk

eternal bliss

randomness

i didn't know him

only heard about him through his father

the son of a rabbi

he was so proud of his twin sons

they both fought in the israeli military for three years

after high school, before going to college

they felt the need to fight for their beautiful land

for their people

together they escaped many near death experiences

bombs in buildings, cars, restaurants in which they were

about to enter

but by the grace of god they were unscathed

finally they finished their duties and were able to come

back home to the safety of their homeland

start up their new life to further their education

and on a normal day just walking across a street

one of them was hit by a car and instantly killed

explain to me how this happens

how can you be facing death on a daily basis

in a violent country and then suddenly

on a college campus at an ivy league school

crossing a street, you are killed?

this leaves me feeling dizzy and sick to my stomach

i didn't know him

but he could be my son

how could i go on after this?

how can you have the faith in god

and continue to believe in the goodness

in the world?

how could i ever trust to let my children out of my sight

my heart would be forever broken

no glue or surgery could ever fix it

there is nothing worse than to lose your children before you die

the more i live the more i see the fragility of life

no one is safe from tragedy

we will all experience some form of it

it scares me to think what awaits me

but the option is not to live

and that is a tragedy in itself

so we must forge ahead and continue

to seek the happiness and beauty in life

not to wait for the floor to fall out from underneath

but to push ourselves beyond our limits and fears

reach out and love one another

forgiving each other more than we do

not finding strength in other people's weaknesses

my daddy

my daddy

taught me about music

he always had it playing in our house

it was never quiet

sometimes it caused a riot

we were always loud

entertaining a crowd

he went to work in a suit

but came home and let loose

poured himself a drink

and in his chair he'd sink

pretending to direct

the most obedient musicians

he'd close his eyes and humm

to the strings the bass and drums

i'll never forget his passion

for tchaikovsky, beethoven and chopin

i would pretend i was a prima ballerina

and dance and prance to gain his attention

yearning for his affection

leaping in all directions

he gave me the strength to reach for the stars

even though some thought i was from mars

he believed in me

and so i was free

to travel far

lonely as a star

but always knowing

my home was warm and glowing

safe and secure for me to return

forever being adored

as his prima ballerina

i love my daddy

and even though he isn't perfect

i forgive his flaws

because in my heart i know

that he loves me so

and that is all that matters

in the end

he is my friend

opaque

i'm fuzzy today

not much to say

rain is pouring down

turning everything brown

feel like somethings missing

but i can't put my finger on it

just am having trouble motivating

you know the days when your jeans dont fit?

and you have difficulty focusing

i'm not in my skin

and i can't seem to win

want to crawl back into bed

and empty the thoughts from my head

start fresh tomorrow

and erase all the sorrow

no need to panic

things will get brighter

and then i will feel lighter