alone but not lonely

here i sit on a saturday night

alone in my shell

my love is away

we've been through this so many times

it never gets easier

but i feel different than before

content to be alone

not needing to distract

wanting to be present

feeling my heart

it is so full

overflowing with a pull

i can't explain

there is some pain

but it is okay 

to let the tears flow

because i know 

i am loved

we've grown so much

i am full of gratitude 

thinking of all we have together

God is so good

we are living our dream

sometimes it's a nightmare

but we have the strength

to survive it all

together 

even when we are apart

good night my love

i miss you 

centering

finding the calm within the storm
going slowly into the deep
craving the quiet
yearning for cool darkness
facing my fears
embracing my weakness
loving my flaws
tuning out the noise
inhaling love
exhaling insecurity
choosing my peace
amidst the chaos
blurring my vision
out of focus
nothing makes sense
laughing so hard
i can't cry
smiling softens my heart
accepting age
surrendering myself
letting go of control
trusting God's plan
listening to my heart
flowing with the vibration
of the musical melodies
singing praises
thankful for the beauty
that surrounds me
loving mother nature
it is the only sure thing
that we know
the sun, moon, stars, ocean
birds, trees
awakening to the brightest light
warming my soul